Today I had a feeling I haven't been feeling much lately, but it reminded me of when I was very little and I would skip through the parking lot with my grandmother singing happy little songs that she might have made up or songs like "Zippity Do Da" She would sing "Its a happy day. Its a happy day. The sun is shining so we can play!" or "Lou, Lou, skip to my Lou." All these sweet, happy songs that we would sing together on sunny days while skipping through the parking lot of the grocery store out running her errands. Pure happiness.
That is how I have felt all weekend.
I started dating this guy recently. I'm always afraid to talk about it with any of my friends out of the fear that they will think that I am moving on too quickly, or, for those who don't know the reason for the divorce, that I was cheating on my husband before we were divorced or something. But, here my bloggy friends, I can share my happiness with no fear of judgement because, like I have said before, everything goes here.
The story goes like this. One night, pre-divorce, the ex and I were sitting in the living room talking and I started crying and told him how scared I was of being alone and how I would meet someone. I only have school and church. I'm certainly not planning on dating the parents of my students, most of the men who are teachers that I know are already married or much older than me, and there have always been the same guys at my church who I was only slightly interested in during high school and not at all anymore. So he suggested that I get on one of those online dating sites.
I started with plenty of fish. A couple ok dates, but they turned out to be kind of creepy.
Then I moved on to ok cupid after hearing some friends from an online support group talk about how they liked that one best. And not long after joining that site a guy messaged me.
I told him about my situation and that I wasn't sure what I was looking for. He asked if I was interested in a guy to do fun things with, dinner and movies and such. That was exactly what I had in mind.
He took me out to a classy restaurant for dinner, but that wasn't enough time together so we walked down to this great arcade/bar around the corner, which still wasn't enough time, so we drove out to the beach until we decided to end our date at almost 1am. I did have to get up for church the next morning after all.
He lives about an hour away, so we have spent every weekend since taking turns driving to one another's city where we spend the weekend going out to eat, shopping for used books and records, going out to the movies, or just sitting inside sharing our favorites movies and tv shows with each other.
This past weekend was the best so far. We spent a great night cuddling and talking. Laughing together. It was bliss. He makes me so happy. Everyone keeps commenting on how happy I look. That's because I am. I am happy with him.
